Show me what’s mine

Sorry for my long silence we were so busy and had a lovely vacation too. “Show me what’s mine”. This was a frase H used several times the past few weeks. Although I don’t think he intended it (or maybe he did ;), but there is a much deeper meaning in those four words for…

I’ve got him

The alarm clock’s sound runs through my body, it not only announces the dawning  of a new day but also the start of a new week. Slowly I get up and give a sigh that comes from deep within me. So far this year has been one big rush. It really feels as if I…

The need for his control.

I am sure for all of us there have been weeks like I had. Weeks where the connection you have with your husband is a bit shaken. Where your comfortable, steady routine that helps you to stay focused and out of trouble gets interupted.  Things keep you busy and occupied to such an extend that…

Need I say more

Some pictures just say it all. These are definitely two of them.  

Safe in his love

What a week! I can honestly say I haven’t felt like I felt this week in a long time. I was stressed out on so many levels and exhausted and emotional. But I was able to keep my self control most of the time and still did everything that had to be done. Okay, I…

Lasting peace

We woke up this morning because of tremendous heat, we have our 5th heat wave. Waking up because of the heat is still okay, but waking up after you’ve only slept two and a half hours is not so nice. We were out all night and had a very pleasant evening juggling two new years…

The empty chair.

Another Christmas without you. The chair next to the Christmas tree was empty again. Your name was missing on the gift cards and there were no gifts for you under the tree. Every year we feel the emptyness without you and realize it is an empty space that will remain like that forever. Never will…

An undeserved spanking???

One week after my very wonderful experience I find myself at the very same place, writing the same test. Trust, obey and submit. Can you believe it? Only this time it had consequeces I wish not to repeat any time soon. I am not a very difficult wife, submission comes naturally to me. Well most…

Trust

There were two incidents this week where my trust in “H” was tested. In reality it is not always easy to trust and submit. We are woman and we are human. We are emotional, but we also have our own opinions and desires. Sometimes the latter gets in the way of our submission and trust…

What do others see in us?

My friend invited me for a quick coffee at her home last week. She is a mother of three and also homeschool two of the three. The third one is still a baby. I really look up to her, she is one of those friends that when you leave after a visit you never ever…

Two cocktails too many..

It is late in the afternoon and her friends and ex-colleagues heard about the troubles she was experiencing at her new job. Although she was not working with them anymore they still saw her as part of their family. So they invited her to their “cocktail-evening” for the term. It was in the middle of…